Bloganuary Day 5

Do you spend more time thinking about the future or the past? Why?

When your past tries to haunt you tell it you don’t believe in ghosts – Matshona Dhliwayo

I’m human and have a memory for a lot of random specific details so I tend to think about the past frequently. Usually at 4 am when I wake and think about all the dumb things I have said and done and would like to undo. I’d like to be the kind of person who can completely let go of the past but that is not really reasonable. There is trauma and selfishness and bad choices but there is also joy and love and friendship and marriage and kids and great adventures! The negative things I pray about and try to let go of. The great things I pray about and thank God for them.

As far as the future goes I think often about what adventures life holds for me and my family and friends. Recently I have been thinking a lot about a job and what that looks like for the next several years. Again I pray and ask for guidance in what is planned for me while attempting to take action in the moment.